MissKairiSakuraLewis

 Sometimes, I wish I could go onto a boat and lost at sea. The the endless sea will cause me to become insane. That way for the first time in my life I will know how it feels to be abnormal. After days of searching for land and muttering prayers to the god I never believed in before, a storm would come and my boat would not be able to support me any more. Then the cold sea will consume my body and I would become one with the water and finally, I would be set free.

I have spent so much time loving, that I have forgotten about all of the hatred in my heart. It sickens me. Now, I look at all these once familiar, friendly faces and I see that none of them really care. If they did they would have not acted the way they did. I hate them.

Because you are sensitive means rude people can manipulate you. Because you are short tall people can walk all over you. Because you are weak strong people can hurt you.

I try to read the letter again... But I can't... Looking at the first few words... I feel my heart drop. The underside reads: "Don't open until you are safe at home and alone." If I knew what it was. If I knew your feelings. If you knew how I couldn't live without you. I would have never let you go... And all I keep saying to myself is "No...No...NO!" Just to calm me down to tell myself this isn't real... And suddenly...A ringing begins in the back of my head. My eyes shoot open. Hot liquid tears running down my face. Cold sweat running down my back. Shaking I get out of bed. To face another day of uncertainty. Not knowing w

I knew she needed help for the longest time. I knew she needed someone to love and support her. I knew I could try...I never knew it would be the most difficult commitment of my life.I never knew I fall this hard...in love? In love. I never thought getting her help. Would cause her this much pain. God knows if I did I would have never put her into this situation. I would have never put either of us through this mental torture. I never wanted your sympathy. You know why I cried? I cried for her I cried for myself just to maybe relieve myself of this sadness and it never worked because constantly, constantly, constantly the tears would fall